Did you know? 

Hello my beautiful Bat Brat’s,

Here’s some knowledge for you.

Did you know?
The extremely well known “ribbit” frog call is actually specific to only a small handful of frog species from the North American Pacific Coastal regions. This is because the call of the Baja California Treefrog was used as the background sound effect for countless old movies, regardless of where the movie was set.

There are also so many different types of frogs that scientists are still discovering new species. There are approximately 4,740 species of frog in the world today.

I just wanted to share some knowledge. I love frog’s so I have researched about them.

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Update (Cramping Feet Are The Worst)

Hello my beautiful Bat Brat’s,

I am having a hard time today. As some of you know already I have a rare movement disorder muscle dystrophy and nerve damage. I have a lot of health problems. Today I am having feet cramps. I think the worst pain ever is cramping. I have a lot of pain and it’s the one type of pain that gets me down for the count. I took a muscle relaxer so hopefully it helps. I probably need to stop eating bananas because I know that’s why I am having feet cramps. I was trying to figure out if the bananas cause me more pain. Sadly they do. Also my cat Boo! is being very cuddly today. She normally gets like this when my pain level is high. It’s like she knows I need her. She’s laying on my legs while I am laying on the couch. It’s so precious. I am so grateful she’s in my life. Boby Ray my stepdad got her for me before I moved out into my own apartment in 2010. He didn’t even like cats. He fell in love with my Boo! though. She’s a special fur baby. I have never had a cat that loves to cuddle. She is a lap kitty. She’s a momma’s Boo too. She doesn’t even run away when I leave the front door open. She trys to go to the neighbors door and beg to go inside. Or she sets outside my door crying for help. She loves me very much. She doesn’t make a good guard cat though. She’s too scared of everything to stand up too anything. She hides away when stranger’s are outside. She’s a lover not a fighter. Like myself. I would rather forgive and forget.

Okay enough rambling on. I might write a poem or two. I don’t know yet. My inspiration hasn’t peek-a-booed yet. My feet are hurting so I think it’s making it hard for me to get modivated to have ideas. I will try. I love you guys. I hope you are having a great day/evening. ♥️🙏 I pray for relief of my pain and anyone else who is suffering as well. Aman!

Boop! Be bold, strong and proud of who you are because there’s only one you. You are beautiful just the way you are. 🌠 You are my stars shining brightly. You are my inspiration and my guidance. Thank you for everything. If it wasn’t for you this blog would not excit. ♥️

My New Drawing Glove

Hello my Beautiful Bat Brat’s,

I wanted to share with you my new drawing glove. Also I am having problems with my fingernail on my drawing finger. I got a pointed nail growing. I tried cutting it but it still grows like that. I need to do something else with it. My two middle fingernails have always grown weirdly. They use to grow in a downward bend before I trained them to not. It took two years for my fingernails to grow somewhat normal. I use to do my nails a lot before I got sick so now they get longer and pointy. I think my fingernails grow like this because I have been drawing a lot for a long time. I use those fingers more. I even have a writers callus on both my hands on my middle fingers. My left hand finger is not so big because I don’t like switching my drawing hand very often. I am a creature of habit and autistic. Lets keep that on the line please. Grrr! I don’t like going off the line. Here’s my new glove and my pointed fingernail. 😆 I know what I am going to do tonight. Bye bye fingernails. 🙋 Plus I always end up scratching myself.

I have a Gothic glove hehehe! I bought it at http://www.walmart.com. I use this glove for both pencil drawing and with my drawing tablet. I bought a cheap drawing tablet on Amazon a year ago. I wanted to try it and I love it but I need a bigger one. I am going to learn how to work with my tablet so don’t you worry about that. When something gets tough Mandy gets tougher. 💪Boop!

I love you guys. I hope you are having a great day/evening. I am doing my best. My pain level is down today so I am so very grateful. I am blessed to be a very strong person.

Invitation To My “Quotation” In Both French & English

English:

“”Beauty develops on poetic words. As they flow from me like a raging river. My banks turn green and the flowers grow. I invite you to sit with me as I write of poetry.” ~ Amanda D Shelton

French:

“La beauté se développe sur des mots poétiques. Comme ils découlent de moi comme une rivière qui fait rage. Mes banques deviennent vertes et les fleurs poussent. Je vous invite à vous asseoir avec moi pendant que j’écris de la poésie. ” ~ Amanda D Shelton

Poetry

This Is My Passion!



Like a river poetry flows,
out from the depths of my soul
words grow.

Rooted from my mind,
experiences, and time
poetry blooms for me
parting my lips
as it pours from my core
wrapping around my heart,
encasing my life with a thorny
bribe.

Poetry chokes my mind,
but gives me more time
to breathe deeply,
it allows me to vent so
I don’t dip deeper into depression.

Poetry is my outlet,
my inspiration,
my moon to my stars,
and the star of my story.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

A Reminder

Under Your Power!

I Trimble



Oh Lord, you are a mighty force,
none can compare to your grace.

Trees bow,
the sun dims,
shadows bend,
and rivers flow
under your tow. 



© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Forgiveness (I Beg)

I Know

I Am A Fool



Around, all around,
the sinister cruelty of life gathers.

My dread grows as
the angry hand of Heaven
falls against my heart.

It wounds me, and darkly my
essence drips to the thirsty earth.

In agony I beg forgiveness
while Death’s shadow laughs cruelly.

Now alone,
my soul falls upon wailing eyes.

This is my salvation,
I do admit,
I am not a sinless creature,
I am a creature of habit.

Forgive me God!



© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Prayer

I Kneel

A Free Soul



Slender beams of moonlight enter
this darkened chamber as I kneel,
always in prayer, always driven,
frozen here, waiting.

Angelic forms loom over this room
as dust dances in the air,
forming an image in my mind,
penetrating my exposed soul.

A reflection on an angel’s face.
I raise my head, now submitting to
this impassive truth.

I slum over in prayer,
a slave to my sinful ways,
I know I am a fool.

But still God judges me not,
for he made me,
out of love he gave me a choice
to worship him or
to live a worldly life of sin.

A long time ago I choose
to worship God, to let go
of my worldly ways and live
accordingly to his law.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Burning Love (Never Forgotten)

Love

You live on through words unspoken,
through a poem you still breathe.



What have you done to me?
A shadow of betrayal as emotions shudder.

Once we savored life together,
innocent and childlike,
but your lies soured.

A painful vision of the truth lingers –
tears follow memory, follow pain,
and love forgotten.

In this torrent of painful memories,
I still love you.

Painful memories still cling
but slowly forgotten
for our love lives on,
even in the darkness our passion burns brightly.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

The Vampire (Forget Me Not)

Forget Me Not

For Eternity Never Will



T’is a night of sorrow,
as the shadows lengthen across the
land the vampire stirs.

Night shrouds her brooding form,
of timeless desires.

Her unruly hair cascades over
pale, tragic shoulders,
as her scarlet lips part slightly,
to taste the blood streaming
from the flesh beneath her.

As she rises full,
I remember her with contempt.

I forgot who I was,
she who lays with decay,
the sun shuns me for eternity.

T’is a night of sorrow indeed,
a death forgotten by the one
who once lived (as me).



© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

From
Vampires Eat Bloody Poetry
and
Bat Cave Poetry.

Beauty Of The Night

Beauty!

I find beauty in the dark,
where you can’t see the light.
For I am able to see through the veil
of decay, gloom, and rot.

I find poetry
in the depths of the night.

Beauty lights my way
with poetic formats,
structured upon black pillars
that loom as shadows dance with gay delite.

I smile upon the night,
as the moon bowed to me.

The stars crossed over my sky
leaving wishes for me.

Darkness kissed my hand
as we danced all night.

This is the
beauty of the night.

A poem waiting for my kiss.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

 

Lingering Memory Of You

I compare thee to a soft breeze,
but you linger on my memory.
For you claimed me with your kiss,
you captured my admiration in
your jar of forget me nots.

Love devoured me,
stole my heart and
my feelings.

A memory of long ago
but still today you linger on.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Update, I am sick (I Also Made New Artwork)

Hello my beautiful Bat Brat’s,

I was thinking about you guys so I decided to post. I have been sick with a cold/flu. I haven’t been this sick since I was a kid. I have upset stomach and I am having problems breathing. Lisa and Joyce already know I am sick so I have help if I need it. I think I am getting better so that’s good. I keep having stomach ack after trying to eat something. Seems to be worse at bedtime. I have been using my Vick’s steamer and rub. I also use my inhaler a bit more. I am use to having to use it once a day now I am using it twice a day. I will call the hospital if I feel worse so please don’t worry. I have so many people for support that I can’t count them on all fingers and toes. 😊 I am thinking my tummy will feel better tomorrow. I started feeling better after I got two hours of sleep last night. Sleep helps the body to heal so I am welcoming sleep, I want to get as much as possible. I wish I could sleep when I want but I have to exhausted my mind for my body to sleep. When I do sleep I try to keep it quiet because anything can wake me up. I usually meditate four hours before bedtime. It’s hard not being able to meditate. I have been taking more time trying to sleep. I should be better within a few more days maybe four. I just want to feel better again.

I am kinda surprised I got sick because I am always careful. That’s why I don’t get sick like this very often. I usually have pain, nausea, and sensory overloads, sometimes sweating with fever. This has made all of those symptoms more uncomfortable.

I love you guys. I hope you are doing well. Maybe tomorrow I will have a poem for you. We’ll see. 👀🔎 Here’s my new artwork. Also I have some pieces for sell on DeviantArt @FroggyArtDesigns.


I Made These Just For Fun


Cell Phone & Tablet Wallpapers

To My Mom

I have learned,
life is too short
to allow death and fear
to control what and where
we go.

I have faced both with
gratitude and grace;
because of you
I am stronger, bloder, and wiser.

Thank you Mom.

You were more than just my mom.
You were my foundation and mortar.

I am still building off
your foundation,
I will continue
until we meet again.

I love you. ♥️🕯️

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

I wrote this on my mom’s Facebook profile here’s the link https://www.facebook.com/anita.moorehead.3781/posts/10156178185103260/.

I am sick today so I am thinking about her a lot. If she was still here, she would have came over here to help me feel better. I miss that the most. Hearing her walk into my house and speaking to Boo telling her she needs to stop being afraid of her. My Boo didn’t like anyone but me. Until my mom had to take care of her that’s when my Boo decided to sleep on top my mom’s head purring away. I remember how excited my mom was that my cat made friends with her. Also Boby Ray fell in love with her too after he said he didn’t like cats. Hahaha! He watched football with my cat and Tom and Jerry.

♥️ I miss them so much.

Rooted Belief’s

Belief System

Rooted in my life is a rare rose,
that bloomed year’s ago.

Through agony and pain
it grew into a perfumed memory.

I learned how to grow alongside it’s bed, hydrating both
with my persistent passion for thriving.

Beliefs!
I became more than a perfumed memory, lingering on your nose.

I became a system, as well as
your stone foundation.

Your future endeavors
are rooted in my bed,
giving you guidance and structure
so you can build your life
with stability and strength.

I also give meaning to your life.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

I Had A Spiritual Experience Today

Hello my beautiful Bat Brat’s,

I am posting this because I had a spiritual moment tonight. I have had many through out my life but only a few changed my path. First off my family was very big in AA program. I grew up being part of the groups. I am very lucky to not suffer from the decease (addiction). I also have a very strong connection with God, I always have and everyone who knows me understands how strong it is. I am not shy about my faith. I got brain surgery because it fell into my lap a second after I let go and let God have my griefs over my pain and movement disorder. Because of those moments I am very faithful and I am a God fearing Woman.

Moving on…
A very precious Woman prayed over me tonight. I had a feeling I knew her and I do. I met her before and I had the same feeling around her. She is special like I am. When she laid hands on my shoulders to pray a heat rolled over me. I had a comforted feeling as if I was meant to be there and I needed to grieve for my loved ones who recently passed away. I realized I haven’t been grieving. I didn’t let it out all the way. My Boby Ray who was very special to me after he passed away, I have been having moments of clarity. I am starting to feel more at peace within myself. I have been crying when I remember my Mom and Boby. I think I needed this for awhile now. God is an awesome being. He shows himself when you least expect it. I always get an experience when I quit going to God. It’s like he’s tapping me on the shoulder telling me “Hey I am here you just forgot.” ♥️😊 I am glad too because it reminds me why I am still here. I am supposed to be here, life isn’t through with me yet. God needs me to change more lives and to make more changes. That’s the purpose for our lives. Change, relationships, and faith. I am so very grateful.

I wanted to share with you my experience because maybe you needed to hear it too. Maybe this will help someone else? I hope so.

Because of God I am alive today. I have a gift of communication and I am sending you my message of faith. Thank you God for all your grace and mercy. I pray for all you that God will touch your lives as he has touched mine. Aman!

🕊️ I am feeling very blessed. 😊♥️💋🤗 I love you all very much. Thank you for everything you do and will do.

Poetry Is Dead

Inspirational and dreed,
we puke up our word’s
unit nothing is left.

Poetry is dead,
for we’ve rubbed it raw,
broke it down into the tiniest pieces.

Now we poets have to prove our right
to call ourselves a poetic crime.

We write it out, draw the line
slowly bleeding what we define.

Our fingers are raw, red,
and bleeding ink,
since dying for our format
is a true crime.

Poetry is dead because it’s
stuck choking on my mind.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Porcelain Angel

Porcelain angel has a
heart of glass,
every breath she takes
causes another break.

Fragile she is but still
she fights, as if her heart
is made from concerete.

Her feet are firmly planted,
but her foundation is not
rooted, so she’s holding steady
upon a weekend bed.

Her ground is felled with
broken dreams, and buried
wishes never seen
by the falling stars
that shoot above her head.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Goodnight Lullaby

The sun burned bright
until the moon says goodnight.
The stars shoot across the sky
waving as they go by.
The beauty of the night,
smiles upon their flight.

As the tree’s bow their leafs,
and the animals scurry to their
homes, the night slowly
spreads it’s arms across the land.

Sleepy eyes are heavy,
the angels bow their heads
in deep prayer.

Goodnight sleep tight,
may you have calm,
peaceful dreams tonight.

🛌

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Poetic Dinner

Watch me eat my word’s,
don’t you worry
I will share with you.

Let’s have dinner at my place,
my poetic brothers and sisters.

I’ll set the table,
wash the dishes,
and cook the food.

I’ll make a poetic dinner
just for you.

Yummy, yummy, yummy
too my poetic tummy.

Poetry for all my reader’s,
such a beautiful bunch you are.
😁

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Poetic Crime’s

It’s a crime if I didn’t take the time
to share my poetry.

These pages are a testimony
of my life,
I am the poems I write.

I suffer through but
I also write the truth,
I am happy and I write for you.

I am a poetic format waiting
to be written, waiting for my
debut.

Come over here
and I will write for you.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Inspiration

Burn baby burn,
kindling to my fire.

Embers red, crackling mind,
never blocked
when inspiration knocks.

Breathing in, breathing out
as my inspiration dribbles out.

Pouring poetic justice
across these pages,
becoming inky crime’s
for your eager minds.

Burn baby burn,
as I light the sky
with my poetic crime’s.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Poetic Love

He’s the thorn and I am the rose.

Black lips with candle drips,
waxy fire melting heart’s together.

Vintage paper scattered the room,
ink smeared across the wall’s,
a poet fell in love.

Books torn, yellowed, and burned
like her heart it turned into
unspoken word’s.

A love affair with a poet,
is like a spoiled child
crying for attention,
the poetry gets gritty
and she smuged her love
all over the place.

You can see it on her face,
a poet fell in love.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

The Wrong Garden

I woke to find you had damaged mine,
the flowers are wilted and froozen,
you said you would care for them,
but sadly you neglected to
keep them warm.

I trusted you with my life
only for you to forget to
feed and hydrate the bed.

Such a fragile thing
but you didn’t find it
important enough to check
on them.

Now I have to replant,
rehydrate, and refertilize
because you forgotten the most important thing, to pay attention
to life and allow it to grow.

I planted my roses in the wrong garden. Now they are dying.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

He’s The Devil In Disguise

He speaks through a forcked tounge,
he feeds you his lies,
as he whips them like a pro
right before your eyes.

He’s the devil in disguise,
wearing a suit and tie. 

Beware of his toupee,
he’s got horns hiding under
that frock.  

He bows only to himself,
his reflection gives his
true nature away. 

He’s the devil is disguise,
he’ll tease you with
his devilish eyes.
Only to bite you
while running away. 

He’s the devil in disguise. 

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Grief Under Cover

Do you know why you want to run?

Life can seem harder sometimes,
but we just try harder
to run faster.

I am like a bird,
I got caught now I am
wishing to be free.

Life wasn’t promised to be easy,
though I wish it wasn’t like this.

Sometimes I’d like to be free
from this cage that’s holding me.

I am feeling like ashes
blowing in the breeze,
I am not sure where I am going
to land.

Though I know it’s not forever,
this journey is dragging me under.

I gasped for air only to choke
on the dirt that has covered my life.

I will not give up
I am just exhausted from this fight.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Amongst The Rose’s I Am Considered A Weed

“You might like it if I
were shady like you.”


I am like a daisy
amongst the roses,
I am considered as a weed.

I am wild and free,
I am not like the others around me.

I have made my bed under the trees,
I have shade and cover
but the roses like to tease me,
trying to steal my
comfortable bed.

I have done nothing but keep
my side of the street clean,
only to have my neighbors
dump their trash on my walkway.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Relationship Update 😟

Hello my beautiful Bat Brat’s,

I have some bad news. Today was a hard day. I found out my boyfriend has been using drugs again. I thought something was wrong with him. He doesn’t support me nor respect me. He accused me of cheating and not giving him support again. After I gave him church, God, AA, and tools. I am sick and he goes and accuses me of cheating and not giving him support as well. Crap! Wouldn’t matter if I wasn’t sick. I would never cheat. He has been dishonest, he used me until I have nothing and he then accusses me of not giving him support. After he chose drug’s over a healthy happy relationship with me. Now I am dealing with his damages again.

I am done. He can be alone. He neglected me anyway. How is it going to hurt him when he made the decision? I had no choice. I still don’t. I am such a fool. I hate this. I should know better. If he doesn’t use AA like he should I will never trust him. I can’t trust him. For now I am hurting mentally and physically. Stupid pain disorders, why do I have to have three? Why couldn’t I have something that’s not painful? I would rather have a mental break down then being in this pain. I have been through mental break downs before and they are easier than dealing with this pain. Grrr!

Why are people dishonest? Why do people not take responsibility for their actions? I would never lie and cheat. I never had the need to. I would rather work for everything. I have suffered a lot to get where I am today. I would never compermise that.

I hate this. I am a fool. I fell for a bully, who doesn’t care about my situation.

It’s not my fault I got sick. I fought very hard trying to get well and figure out what was wrong. I didn’t want to have all these health problems. I had plans for the future to start a business and travel places. I thought I took care of my illnesses. I only got rid of one, the schizophrenia. Why could I do that but not my other illness? I tried so hard.

I don’t know what else to do so I am blogging about it. Plus you guys understand. We all have issues and happy times. It’s part of being human. We wouldn’t hurt if we weren’t aware of things. We wouldn’t fall in love if we couldn’t understand the concept of love.

Relationships are hard work. Don’t think for one moment that love is always a magical place and feeling. Love can hurt, tear your world into pieces, and leave you exhausted, and beat. It leaves scares, bruises, and painful memories. It can also bring patience, understanding, and comfort. All of those things take time to build and remodel. A relationship is a full time job, it’s demanding and exhausting sometimes.

I need prayers and support. Also please keep Seany in your prayers too. He’s the one who is having the problem. I am worried about him. The hard thing I have to do is wait it out. I can’t do anything else. He has a lot of support because I made sure of it. Just remember that we all suffer through this life. We all need love and some type of support.

♥️ Sending you my love, my beautiful Bat Brat’s. Thank you for being you. You are awesome sauce to my ice cream. 🍧

I Am Working On A New Drawing & I Posted A Poem

Hello my beautiful Bat Brat’s,

Your Mandy is working on a new drawing today. I am thinking about what I should draw. Boo is even in the mood to join me. She’s going to want cuddles soon. She’s a lap kitty and a cuddle bug. 😁😊 I don’t have a cat I have a cat-dog, she can be a Bat Brat too. Hahaha! ]=•) I think my cat is my biggest fan.



Here’s a short poem.

My Biggest Fan

My cat is my biggest fan,
she’s always by my side,
purrs all of the time.

I am ma,
as she runs around
yelling for me.

Every morning it’s the same
routine, I have a permanent
two year old running the scene.

Watch out for your purses lady’s,
for my cat likes to check
your luggage before you leave.

She’ll show you her toy boxes,
her hiding places are no secret,
she’s a nanny trying to keep
my house clean.

She’s more like a dog,
she waits for me everytime I leave,
I come home and she’s still
setting in the same spot
as she did before I left.

My cat is my biggest fan.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Live

Like babbling brooks,
we once flowed like rivers
touching each other’s banks. 

Slowly life rushed us through,
crashing us against the rocks,
causing our rapids to rage,
as we collide our rivers grew. 

Live, love, eat, and die
like the rivers do.
We leave behind
scares and grooves
creating valley’s and canals,
a memorial from our experiences. 

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

The Suffers Web

Running fast but
going nowhere faster,
exhausted, ruined, and mulch
life can seem like all of these things.

Slowly decaying,
melting away
with unforgiving age
chipping away.

Broken motherboard,
beeping for attention,
sending unwanted codes
to the network that doesn’t
work like it use to.

Wreckless rebel building
conquests from babbling
networks that slowly
give no interest to the server.

This is the suffers web.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Moving On From Suffering

Life can be hard,
Life can seem heavy at times.

Life can be like a fog,
rolling over your parade
so no one can see
the floats going by.

But once it rains,
once you get rest and clean,
life can seem like
a cool breeze
or a slowing rollercoaster
ready to release for
the next passengers.

Patience is what we need,
also love from everyone
and God.

This too shall pass
just try to remember
where you came from
and where you want
to head from now.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

“To recovery to discovery, life is taken stride by stride, moment by moment. You might get cut alone the way but wound’s heal and stragthen.” © 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

I wrote this for a friend.

Update & A Practice Drawing

Hello my beautiful Bat Brat’s,

Today was an awesome day, my sister took me to our parents grave site. I got to say goodbye and I love you. We scattered ashes of both our family dogs who we loved very much. They both passed away from old age. We watered them so they can help the plants grow. It’s the circle of life. Now Mom and Boby Ray are together with Sparky and Lambert. I miss them very much. I finally cried while my sister and I shared memories over brunch. It takes me a little while to experience emotions because I am more of a logical thinker than emotional. Though I deal with things quickly now that I am older. I am glad because life was so much harder when I was learning how to deal with my disabilities. I love being an adult with responsibilities. 😁 Thank you to everyone who supported me and those who still do. Thank you to Mental Health, and the health care system. You all contribute to my care and well-being. If you tell me I can’t, I will prove you wrong by doing better than everyone else. I will climb a mountain if I have to. I will free dive in the ocean if I want to. I will ride the biggest wave if I choose to. I will survive, as I was born to.

Moving on…

Here’s a practice drawing of a hand, I finished this just awhile ago. I know it looks off a bit but it’s just a practice drawing so there’s a lot of flaws. I hope you enjoy.

“Be beautiful and bold, and don’t forget to shine like the star you are.” – © 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

I Made A New Background

Hello My Beautiful Bat Brat’s,

I have some awesome news, I have made two new pieces of art work. I call them Quacker’s For You Designs.

“Row row row your duck gently down the lain. Quack quack quack all the way home.” Hahaha!

I made a ducky and then I copied him to make a background in Photoshop. He’s looking at you.

Here’s the pictures.

Neglected Shadow

I am like a shadow to your life,
but one that carries your strife.

You slice me open with your
lack of care, you push me
to the side as if I wasn’t there.

You say nice things,
but never do those things.

You complain about everything,
you are loud when I need silence.

You never gave me
the support I need.

You used me but never
give me the time I need.

You are selfish and needy,
you act jealous and greedy.

I feel confined and used,
like a par of holy shoe’s.

I feel like I am a prick
to your time and space,
for you have complained about
being here for me and
that you don’t have time for it.

I got sick and you make
me feel guilty for it.

You say sorry but never show it.

You broke my heart,
you damaged my trust,
you threw me away.

You pushed me over the edge
only to watch me fall,
and laugh as I fell.

You shut me off,
as if you think I have no feelings,
as if you saw me as one of your
computer’s.

You broke my motherboard,
left me in pieces,
you are more willing to fix your electronics then our relationship.

I am lonely and neglected,
you turned your back
while I cried.
You never were there,
like you said you would be.

I can’t rely on you for nothing,
you would rather just
stand there and do nothing.
That’s exactly what you have done,
while I was left crying and
bare.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

To Seany, you haven’t been loving and supportive. You hurt me. 😔

I Am Blessed

I am not alone,
for Angles are always around me.

Their guidance is shown
through my faith and trust,
and through my exceptance
I have never walked alone.

I have trust in the Lord,
my prayers never fall on deaf ears,
for my God hears everything
even when I am silent he knows what
my heart desires the most.

I am blessed; I have always known.
I have never walked alone for
my Lord has blessed me with
my life, heart, soul, and mind.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

The Rain

I ponder on the wild wind,
it carried my thoughts
to places I’ve never been.

Dripping dew from morning grass,
reflect my mood through
it’s beaming shimmers.

I love the smell of the
rain, it sooths my soul
and makes my heart sing.

I will remember when it rained.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Blooming Bat Brat Leggings For Woman

Hello My Beautiful Bat Brat’s,
I have new products for sell. These are leggings I designed. You can visit the site by clicking on the link down below this post. Also here’s details on deal’s
LAST DAY Limited Time! Enter code: APRILDEALZAZ at checkout in the “Promo Code/Gift Card” box.

Size Guide Body Sizes

For
XS (0-2)
Waste 22
Hip 32
Inseam 29

For
S (4-6)
Waste 25
Hip 36
Inseam 29

For
M (8-10)
Waste 28
Hip 40
Inseam 30

For
L (12-14)
Waste 33
Hip 42
Inseam 31

Waist: Measure around your natural waistline at the narrowest point.

Come check out more products
at Bat Brat’s.

More coming soon.

Payloadz and PayPal ( PayPal Has A Case For Fraudulent Activity Against From Payloadz)

Hello My Beautiful Bat Brat’s,

Warning!

Please stay clear of Payloadz! They are a fraudulent company, they try to steal money for their clients. They don’t allow you to close your account until after they steal money from you. Their system is flawed and ellegal. Please this is a warning! Don’t make an account with Payloadz. They are fraudulent and don’t provide support. I contacted them and they never replied back. Now they have stolen money from me three times. They also took more money from me for no reason. Their subscription was $19.95 USD but they took $20.33 USD twice from my bank account. I didn’t authorize that extra money. I wasn’t told about why they took more than was excited either. I am not rich and $20 is a lot of money for me. I can buy food for a half a month with how much money Payloadz stole from me.



I have some bad news and I guess good news. PayPal has opened a case against Payloadz for fraudulent activity against me. Payloadz hacked my account and stole money. After I cancelled my subscription and they didn’t let me close my account with them until today. I was afraid this would happen because I saw the signs. I am going to try to get Payloadz shut down because of this. Websites like that shouldn’t be allowed to run. It’s ellegal to take money from anyone who didn’t authorize the transaction. I cancelled my subscription around a week ago and Payloadz didn’t allow me to close my account. I even contacted them and they didn’t reply back. Now they stole $19.95 USD from my bank account twice and took extra. Lucky for me PayPal is honest and secure. They took no time to investigate. After 5 minutes of contacting me through text they already have a case against Payloadz for fraudulent activity.

“Thank you PayPal, you have made me feel secure and I can trust your company.”

I never thought this would happen to me. I have learned that you can’t trust most companies that say you can trust them. They shouldn’t have to promote trustworthiness, if they are trustworthy you will see it. Why would anyone have to promote they are honest if they are honest? It will be visible if they are and they shouldn’t have to tell you how honest they are. Don’t believe a company that has “I am trustworthy I promise”, in their system. If they are trustworthy you will see it and they won’t have to say anything.

I recommend using PayPal if you want to have a secure online bank account. Don’t get frustrated because their system is very tight. The reason they make you do more work is to keep your account secure. Most people are lazy, they get upset because they think they shouldn’t have to do work to secure their information. When it’s safer to do business that way. It shows how much effort a company will go through to keep you safe. PayPal needs your information if you want to use them. That’s how it works. Also getting Support from them is very easy. They have loads of information on the website and you can report to them anything you find important. They take time to communicate back as soon as possible. You get a reply right away, most of the time. I think it depends on the situation, some reports need more time.

I will give you all updates as this unfolds.

Lost But Not Forgotten

My stepdad passed away a few days ago. I wrote this poem and waiting until I was strong enough to share it. I am ready now.



Forgotten you are not,
but lost you are.

My heart quickened when I heard
the news of your passing.

I wanted to say so many things to you
but sadly with a heavy heart
I have to let you go.

I have suffered many broken heart’s,
I have collected my losses in my jars of broken dreams.

Each one I protected;
I bared my soul for all
whom I love, I suffer because
I love you.

To lose a piece of your heart
is like cutting away at bare skin,
it’s raw painful and crude.
I bleed for you.

RIP Boby Ray,
you were and always will be
special to me.

Your memory lives on through everyone who reads this
and those who knew you in life.

You suffer no more pain and strife
for now you are in heaven
living a Holly life.

God speed my
beautiful friend and father.

💔

I am proud to call you my stepdad.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Respect The River’s

Respect the rivers,
that give life to the mountains.

Rushing rivers pushing life
to the tree’s,
to the valley’s they wave,
surfing marshes and meadows green.

Riding fog in the morning
and sun beams,
dew drops glistening, and
cool air brushing the tops of tree’s.

Respect the river’s edge,
it’s beautiful but dangerous.

Flow like the river flows through
the mountains,
give love to the people
who forgot to say good morning.

Be like the fog, blind the hate
and bring the love to the valley.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Web Of Strife

The strings attached to your suffering jerk, tugging at your every move.

You are found walking on the line, very closely to the edge.

You can breathe but to feel is harder as your life becomes heavy laying upon your chest.

Breathing becomes a chore, useless at times it seems. Although every living thing needs to breathe.

Suffering is like a fly caught in a spiders web, it wiggles to be free. Sadly that’s it’s key to the door of death.

I have learned how to stop wiggling, to sit for awhile longer, breathe one more time and deeply.

I might struggle at times but I know when to expect my design is perfect the way it is.

We all are flawed, we all live on the edge of our realities, moving as life pushes us forward.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Two Updates

Hello my beautiful Bat Brat’s,

l have some news about my life. First, I tried a new medication from pain management, sadly I am allergic to it. The doctor and I already knew something might happen because it has before. I am going to talk to him about sticking to the medications I have been taking for three years now. I am tired of dealing with the pain from trying new medications. I would rather live with the pain I already have.

Second, I cancelled my web store Lily Pad Stock Designs, I had to because I wasn’t making money off it and I was paying a monthly fee. Bat Brat’s is free so I can actually keep it running and I will save money.

Also I don’t recommend Payloadz to anyone because they make it very difficult to delete your account. They don’t tell you, you can’t delete your account. Even though they have a page called “Delete Account”. I will tell you how to cancel your payments through PayPal though. That’s the only way to actually stop them from stealing from you.

If you use PayPal to pay here’s the way to cancel payments to Payloadz.

  1. Long in to your PayPal
  2. Go to your activities in your account. It’s on the top menu.
  3. Click on one of Payloadz transactions.
  4. Click on the details of that transaction.
  5. You need to follow “View Billing Agreement Details” by clicking on it.
  6. On “Status” you need to click “Cancel” and agree to your actions.
  7. Your payments will stop.

I was very disappointed about this because their company promotes that they are honest and secure. When you can’t even delete your account if you choose to not use their service any longer. It’s very fishy and unsecure. They are able to steal from you because they don’t tell you how to cancel your payments. How hard would it be for them to set up a link that cancels or deletes your account and any future transactions, or at least lead people to a way to cancel future transactions? Lucky me I am smarter than they are. I research and learn quickly. Now I have given you knowledge, made you smarter too.

Knowledge is power baby! Mighter than the sword. For how can a city grow if the people are dead? Swords kill but knowledge can help things grow so grow my baby Bat Brat’s grow. 😁😊🤗♥️ Love you all. Boop!

Building The Internet

Type it out,
spread the ink,
until I am thin
smuged across your
computers screen.

Free form,
simple and clean,
without the words
you wouldn’t have this
screen,
(codes are for building the web).

Digital marketing,
advertising,
spammers damage
what admins clean.

I am the owner of this page,
I am also a writer and artist
I fell for the internet
around the age of 13.

I built websites and webpages
before I graduated from high school,
my passions for creativity
grew as I grew,
now I am free,
smarter too,
happiness found me
while I searched the internet.

Now it’s 2018 I am still
creating for the web.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

I posted this at Passionate Ink. Follow the link to visit the post. Feel free to join. We are looking for members.

Burning Bridges

I walked my way through
heavy rain,
burned bridges along the way.

Through the years I suffered
pain, my bruises still raw
and hold the strife
I claim.

Over time things change
but still my soul remains
strong and bold.

I go my way burning bridges
along the way.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Goodnight Everybody

I pray for a restful night,
and sweet dreams to you all.

My you dream of your
wishes coming true,
and your heart full
with everything you desire;
so you can wake full of contentment.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Admiring The Moon

Breath taking, beyond the dawn,
around the hills,the sun melts
into an orange view.

As I wait for the moons kiss,
the sun bows closing the curtain
to invite the pending night
to take center stage.

Aww how I wait,
remembering what awaits me,
when the shadows dance, and
lengthen; I know the time has come.

My friend the moon winks
and swoons, as I admire his
white looming gloom.

The night smiles for me,
embracing the mood,
as the darkness kissed me.

Goodnight my handsome moon King,
may you sit in your darkened throne
looming over your nighty
kingdom of stars;
as you are a breath taking view.

I bow to you one last time.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Welcome The New Additions To Bat Brat’s

Hello Bat Brat’s,

How are you my beautiful Bat Brat’s? I have been working hard making new designs for my store. Here are some of the new merchandise. I added a cupcake collection. Oh and if you scroll down to the bottom of this post you will find my original pencil drawing of the cupcake. I redrew it in digital format so I can use it on my merchandise. I hope you enjoy. 🤗😋

You can visit Bat Brat’s by following the link or by clicking on the images. The images will take you to the product shown in the pictures.

Thank you for being
beautiful and awesome.
I love you all and I am
very grateful to have you
as my reader’s.

This is the original Cupcake drawing,
I redrew it in digital format.

I also made a logo as seen
above in the post.

A Poet Is An Artist

A poet is an artist,
we paint with words and formats.

Our canvas is the internet,
parchment paper, a wall,
or fabric.

Our paints are pigmented with our
lives, slowly growing revealing
our strife.

With each line, we paint a grand design.

For a poet has an imagination
that has no secrets,
for us it’s easy to be honest,
special when the pen
is beaconing
for us to pick it up.

You can’t be a poet and be shy,
for who will take notice
of your grand design if
you won’t look them in the eye?

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Your Collection Of Broken Hearts

Hearts shatter so easily,
the pieces are sharp and crude.

The fragile pieces keep
cutting into my life,
making new wounds each time.

You take your knife
pushing it deeply
into my already broken life,
you screw it deeper
until there’s nothing left
for me to bleed out.

You collect my suffering
in your dirty jar’s,
savoring my last heart beat
as if waiting for another
so you can take one more slice
just incase it didn’t fell
the jars to there brem.

You have become a grim reminder,
I shouldn’t trust you
as my friend or lover.

Sadly I have been through hell
many times before,
and I have grown stronger.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

A Helping Hand

I believe in you.

I love you.

Think positive.

Don’t let life drag you under,
instead pull yourself up
with each wave
and hold on tight
for your up for a bumpy ride.

You are not alone, for I
stand at the edge of the boat
holding out my hand.

You just need to grab it
so I can help you ashore.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Guns & America

What is the problem with our Government?

They stand for business,
they stand for rich,
they stand for Selfishness,
they stand for violence,
they stand for violations,
they stand for none of us.

How can they
when they never thought about us
when guns were shooting down
our doors?

United States is what we call America,
yet our Government segregates
and dominants our rights
until we can’t stand no more.

You think a gun is going to save you,
yet there are people fighting for their lives because of guns that are not being controlled properly by our own Government.

For what? Oh for people’s right to carry a weapon?
When why do you need a gun
if you are not a
military, police officer, or lawmen?

What is wrong with you?
You can’t see the death and destruction before you?
That you caused!
Do to the lack of restrictions.

Shame on you!

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

New Gothic Decor Designs Collection & New Merchandise At Bat Brat’s

Hello Bat Brat’s,

I hope you are well. I have been working hard on making designs for my store Bat Brat’s. I am also working on poems to share. I am taking a break on writing because I get better ideas when I let my mind set for awhile. Here’s some of my new designs I have added to Bat Brat’s. I hope you enjoy. I work hard creating these designs. It’s a lot of work running a store.

You can visit Gothic Decor Designs Collection by clicking on the picture below.

Stay beautiful, bold, and awesome my Bat Brat’s. Bless you all. 🤗♥️😋

Goodnight Poem

Heavy beath as the moon pulls
your tired eyes closer to its sky.

Lifting your mind beyond the horizon,
you drift away on a dreamy cloud.

As it starts to fade,
you go in and out,
you began to wake as you slowly
fall from your deamy cloud.

Goodnight sweat dreamer,
may you have peaceful sleep,
and creative dreams to guide you
through to the waking hour.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton.

I Need Your Help

Hello Bat Brat’s,

I have been thinking, how can I engage my beautiful Bat Brat’s more? Well I am working on a character design and I need ideas for the drawing. Here’s what I have so far.

I need your comments please. I am going to give her face a cute and chubby look. What color of hair should I give her?

Hair Color Ideas

  1. Brown
  2. Auburn
  3. Blondie
  4. Black
  5. Pink
  6. Red
  7. Blue
  8. Green
  9. Gray
  10. Black with red streaks
  11. Black with blue streaks
  12. Black with green streaks
  13. Black with blonde streaks
  14. Black with pink streaks
  15. A hat with black hair

Please let me know by putting the number of your answer and anything else you would like to say in your comments below this post.

Thank you. ♥️

New Merchandise Added To Bat Brat’s and A Bit Rambling

Hello my beautiful Bat Brat’s,

Sending some Gothic love your way from your ~B~at Brat Mandy. I have been working hard on making artwork for Bat Brat’s. You can visit the store here at Bat Brat’s. I wanted to share with you a few pieces of artwork I drew, the samples are below. These took me awhile to finish and I am very proud of myself. Specialy proud of The Black n White Movie Guy drawing. He was very fun to draw. Gothic Decor took me awhile to finish because of the details. I actually used a dotting technique to make the whole drawing, blowing it up really large dot after dot and shrinking it down after I finished it. I only drew one side and copied it turned it around and combined the two together. That gave it a grungy texture and a finished product. The lips took an hour to finish but it was the most difficult to achieve. Having a movement disorder kinda makes drawing a slower process than it should be. Though with patients and skill I am able to achieve a lot. I remember when I was a child I was very highper and scared, I got tired of being that way so at the age of 11 I started trying to train myself to be patient and peaceful. I even changed my diet to vegan because I was tired of getting sick from eating meat. My mom helped by buying the foods I needed. I have gone back to eating the same thing because I was getting sick again. Now it’s very rare for me to feel sick after eating. I have cut out gluten as well because I have Celiac disease. It’s not a sensitive to gluten either. I have rashes on my stomach and back if I eat gluten. I also have ichy skin it’s very irritating when I eat Gluten. I found out that honey nut Cheerios is gluten free now so I have been buying some. I am so glad because I tried eating it as a kid but it hurt my stomach so badly I was too afraid to eat it again. Yay! for gluten free!

On to my artwork again. I hope you all like my new artwork. I am very glad I can blog them to you. Peace out my beautiful Bat Brat’s!

Be the best Bat Brat’s you can be. Be bold and strong and shine like the stars you are. Hugs from yours sincerely Amanda D Shelton a Goth chic who writes poetry and draws like it’s going out of style. I got to keep it trending, this is the internet after all. :-] Boop!

I Regret Falling For You

I fell hard, but you dropped me harder.

I begged for your attention,
I should have known better,
no one should have to
beg for respect.

If you care about someone,
why would you do things to hurt them?

I have been neglected by you,
I have been told
how ugly you really think I am.

After all the suffering you put me through, you still keep hitting me through and through.

I have been bleeding for you,
yet you don’t care.
You just keep slashing
and bashing me into your
endless lies.

I haven’t been loved by you,
I have been judged
and criticised by you.

You say your excuses
just to justify your choices,
even though there’s no uses
for your abuse’s.

I have scares that haven’t healed,
because I never had time to.

You go for one hit,
then you go for another
before I can stand again.

You blame me for your lack
of interest, and entertainment,
yet I tried to give you my time.
You neglected it.

You want perfection,
when none is possible,
you are unfair to those
who can’t afford it.

You bring your selfishness
to the table, but you never
eat it, even though it’s there.

I cried while you ran away
from nothing, you assume
I don’t care because
you choose not to be
here when I needed you.

I have tried but you never cared to.

You lied about how much
you love me,
you said you needed me
yet you never stayed
when I ask you to.

You used love to hurt me,
after I am crying
you stepped on my heart
once again.

I bared myself to you,
you flinched as if I hurt you.
I never had the chance
to touch you.

You complained about
the way I spoke,
you never told me
how beautiful you think
I am, instead you used me.

I couldn’t stop you,
you said I did yet
I can’t because
I am unable to move
like you claim I do.

You are blinded by
your own selfish wants,
you burn me until I am ashes.

You give me no choices,
after I gave you so many chances.

I was bullied and blamed,
as you cast me into your flames.

Without remorse you cut and
pasted your needless desires,
telling me it’s in my name.

I have given you my last crumb,
you still wanting more
even though I have none.

I emptied my heart to you,
only to have you dump it out.

You don’t care about the pain
and suffering you put me through.

You wanting your way,
so you took everything
with you.

Goodbye my love,
I hope you remember everything we had.

I will never forget what
you have done because
you stole it all and
you took my heart with you
in chains.

💔

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Portrayed

Portrayed



 

Wind, portrayed by
the bending trees
and flying leafs.

Rain, portrayed by
water collecting
on my window,
car’s swooshing by
picking up the muddy road.

Clouds, portrayed by
gray cotton balls
heavy with moisture,
fog blinding the traffic lights,
a chilly breath
creeps up your spine.

Coffee, portrayed by
its sent of floral beans
brewed to perfection,
and brown cream foaming
at the rim of your mug.

Morning, portrayed by
the rising sun beaming
beautiful shimmers
of dew covered grass,
and birds chirping.

Mountains, portrayed by
cascades of water over large rocks
facing a valley,a river pushing through the folding passes
of looming peeks covered
in green and brown, and tree’s.

Beauty, portrayed by
a look, a reflection
of self or others.

Poetry, portrayed by
word’s, format, and skill
but has no real grammar.

Life, portrayed by
decay, change, struggle,
and scares.

Me, portrayed by
my writing, personality, grace, sometimes suffering.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

My New Campaigns Are Up And Running

Hello Bat Brat’s,

I have added new campaigns to my Bonfire stories. I also made a Gothic Realms T-shirt campaign. Also Don’t miss Coffee Lovers Delight T-shirts . I am loving #Bonfire it’s very easy to use. I do the designing while the site provides me the t-shirts. Also if you use my special link to sign up for your own account we both benefit so here’s the link: Bonfire Affiliate Link. You can also follow my store on Facebook @BatBrats and I have a Facebook page for Gothic Realms Dark Visions In The Night. I am waiting for Facebook to approve a name change for my Facebook page, so for now it’s called Gothic Muse The Shadow Rose.


Campaign List

There will be more soon. I hope you have a great day/evening.

You Are

You are my bud to my rose,
you are my breath to my life,
you are my coo to my caw,
you are my shadow
to my morning sun,
you are my path
to my destination,
you are my cream
to my coffee.

You are many things
to my life,
you add structure
and texture to my ever
changing world.

You give me reason for living,
you add demintion to my understanding.

You give meaning to my quest,
my journey will never be a bore
not with you aboard.

You are my desire,
my reasoning and
the only one who forever holds
the key to the chambers of my heart.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

I Am Ruin

Dusty, rusty, blacked, and decayed,
I came to take everything away.

Slowly I came,
silent, and cumbersome,
I will make you remember me.

Who will forget the thing
that stole your time,
wasted life that forgot to
live to fulfillment?

I am ruin, I am decay, I am blackness,
I am memories of long forgotten.

This world can’t hold both of us,
so the strongest survive,
I am ruin, I am dust, and ashes,
I am blinded by my purpose.

To the end,
I am gone but never forgotten.

I am ruin.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Our Love

Between the times we are together
and apart my heart waits patiently
but eager for your returning.
Time is like a shadow,
I can’t see it but I know it’s there,
our love can seem the same.

Like unforgiving waves
the destination is always the same,
I crash upon your shores,
like a storm you crash into mine.

We need not climb alone,
for we’ve got a forever home
inside each other’s arms.

Love is like a stone,
it can seem hard at times,
but it takes thousands of years
to degrade.
Our love is the same.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

To my Seanisko, my Seany, my love. ♥️

Dystonia Awareness T-shirts

Hello Bat Brat’s,

How are my beautiful Bat Brat’s today? I myself, I am doing okay. I have been working hard. I have made a t-shirt campaign for Dystonia Awareness. Here’s the link Dystonia Awareness T-shirts. The design is my own. I drew the butterfly awhile ago. I decided I should make money and do a good deed. You can buy Dystonia Awareness T-shirts. The money I make will go to art supplies and my forum also anything special. I have other campaigns running as well so you can check them out too.


Campaign List

There will be more soon. I hope you have a great day/evening.

Faithfully Friend

I bow my head in prayer,
as you bend your Godly ear
you hear my sinfull crys.

God: My child!

Me: you call me
by name only,
though I never took pride
in such a thing
as my name.

God: I hear your crys clearly
in the dead of night.

Me: You remind me of who I am,
what you want me to become;
to become your faithfully friend.

I understand,
though I want like everyone else
to become more than just a name.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Savage Heart

Like a dagger tearing
through my chest,
you slash and break
everything I hold
inside the chamber
of my heart.

Your words are
like burning embers,
they scar and maim
my fragile heart.

With your wicked tung
comes wicked words,
hurtful and damaging,
careless and savage.

What makes it hurt worse,
I love you.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Vintage Flowers

Decay quickly took you away,
you faded into a forgotten perfume,
old fashioned wrinkled and ragged;
you started to molt
you slowly turned into mulch.
Sadly you became ashes,
you blacked the pages of a book,
you crisped up;
Slowly but surely
you became vintage.

Cigarettes The Legal Poison

Hello Bat Brat’s,

This post is going to be a rant. First off, I hate cigarettes because they have killed a lot of people I love. Our government is allowing business to poison masses of people and animals by selling cigarettes.

Cigarettes kill more life than any other product. It causes cancer, heart deseas, high blood pressure, clogged arteries, plague to clog your lungs, and a lot more.

Don’t blame anyone but yourself if you choose to buy cigarettes. You always have a choice. To buy or not to buy cigarettes.

You want to save a life? Stop buying cigarettes, start putting the truth out into the world by telling people that they are killing everyone by buying cigarettes. It’s murder people. Our government allows business to murder people. It’s sad really.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

New Merchandise Added To Bat Brat Mandy

Hello Bat Brat’s,

I have added new merchandise to my web store. Here’s the link Bat Brat Mandy. Also here’s samples of my new artwork. I call it “Friends Forever Stitched Together”.

Broken Pieces

Its to late this is not the answer,
I can’t pull you in with just
my poetry and word’s alone.

I fell apart so many times before,
shattered dreams,
I dreamt of being like everyone else.
I broke my heart, thinking
I should be ashamed for not
being like you.

I learned my shadow never bent
like yours,
instead I collected and created
my own home,
invited you inside
so I can be comfortable for a change.

I learned how to love my differences,
and except yours.

I stopped eating society’s rules,
made my own but added to yours.

I will never be what you
expected, you are living a lie
if you think I should.

Life never promised you perfection,
I will never be what you expected.

I don’t care anymore if I am judged,
I have learned it’s not my fault
people push and shove, trying to
mold us to bent and break us.

I will never break because
I have already been bent in different ways.

I will never bend in such a way,
you will have to go your own way,
I will just sit here waiting for you.

I picked up my broken pieces,
built my foundation and glued
my life back together.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Happy Valentine’s Day

Happy Valentine’s Day
From: Me
To: You

I am hoping,
wishful thinking,
of a place where
everyone is happy.

I am hoping,
some what wishing,
my heart romancing about you.

There once was a place
where everyone
held a smile on their face,
but one dreary day,
the clouds drew a gray sky
as every body gazed
upward to the sky,
the clouds rolled over
revealing their silver linings,
it broke and sadness
fell from their eyes.

It rained for years, with tears in every eye.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Are Negative Thoughts Harmful? | I Do Better In The Dark And I Don’t Need Much Sleep

Are negative thoughts harmful?

Hell no, if you feel bad about your bad day you have rights as a human being to express that feeling. What’s harmful is to hold it in, lying to yourself that you need to be positive to be productive. Being productive is not being positive all the time. If you have bumped your knee before do you just sit there or do you say ouch! I say ouch! My brain tells me I should rub it and do something about the pain. So I do just that.

Stress Is Not Bad For You Either. We humans need to feel stress so our brains can make better decisions. Like making a mistake, do you like making the same mistakes again and again or do you learn from them? I learn from my mistakes and I don’t think I am a failure, I think hey I just need to start over and do my best. I don’t stay on the ground after falling. I brush myself off and get up and try again. I know I can get through the hard times because I have before. The sun always rises because it’s always in the sky. That means your bad day will have to pass sometime.

I also like to live in the moment because it helps me to understand that this moment is only a nick in time, it can’t stay nor go backwards. What’s the use in dwelling on the backwards if you can’t go backwards? This is why I handle my pain so well. I know if I feel pain I need to express it by being honest and at the same time tell myself this too shall pass. I know it will because it has many times before.

Please don’t think positive thoughts are the way to live; because you need negative to understand positive and visa versa. It’s the yin and yang. I myself like to have a balance between negative and positive. Negative thoughts help me to deal with threatening situations and positive thoughts help me to deal with stressful situations. I also like to meditate at night and early in the morning.

I Don’t Need Much Sleep

I usually meditate four hours before going to bed and before I get up out of bed. I feel more relaxed and happy when I do. I then drink two bottles of water after each section. Water is very important to live a healthy lifestyle. I recommend you talking to your doctor about how much water is good for you. Everyone is different. Like myself I need more potassium and magnesium so that I can have more energy. My body eats up potassium and magnesium very quickly. I have cramps a lot because of it. I also can’t eat or drink it because my body trys to reject it. I have learned how to live with it. The doctors have tried different treatment’s to try to balance my potassium and magnesium sadly it made it worse so they quit trying. I am glad because I got tried feeling sicker. Also I thought I was depressed because I feel good in the dark. I have been told that I am not depressed. I have sensitivity to light that no one can change. I also have color blindness that causes colors to dim and brighten depending on the level of light there is. Blue is green if you add gray to the blue. Red is orange if you add white lights to the area. Also I can’t see anything on neon paper, lighting, and blacklights cause me headaches. I am a rare person indeed. I can run on two hours of sleep a night. I feel horrible if I sleep more than that. Trust me I have tried. It feels yucky. I have learned everyone is different. If you are not tired and you seem to be doing fine then there’s no problem but if people start telling you they notice changes you should see a doctor. I know I do. I have also asked my doctor’s why I can go without sleep for so long and they said because my brain is different. I have taken different tests and they can’t find anything wrong. I am just me.

I don’t stress out about little things anymore too. I have learned it’s okay to not be okay. Not everything is going to go the way I want. Once I stopped thinking it should that was the moment my life got easier to handle. To achieve happiness you have to stop expecting anything from everything. You will never be happy if you think you should always be happy. You are spoiled if you think you should be happy all the time. Who told you life is supposed to be perfect just for you? No one that’s who. Also I promise you’ll be okay. I know because I am and I have suffered just as much as you have. I have 36 year’s on my belt. I am fat with life hahahaha!

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Autistic

Autistic are we,
who think with imagery.

Silent minds are not stupid,
we just don’t need annoying
voices to help us think.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

My Shadow Friend

The shadows lengthen
and slowly stretch
across this baren landscape,
they are a witness to its darkest hour.

I a lost soul,
march alongside my shadow friend.

My every step in unity
with my shadow friend,
we fought bravely for the light,
until the dawn
brought her blinding light.

The shadows grow,
as the day goes
running fast and steady,
the sun fades away,
the moon comes to play.

Goodbye my shadow friend,
until the next day;
I will not forget our relationship.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

I Added Another Piece Of Art To My Web Store

Hello Bat Brat’s,

I am excited to announce my new piece of art. I worked hard on this. It’s called Spring Flowers. You can buy my merchandise by clicking on this link Bat Brat Mandy.

Painful Life

Having chronic pain
and no pain relief
is like living hell.

Welcome to my chronic life,
where my skin burns
and my feet roll.

Like walking on prickly coals
and rocky mountain terrain
without shoe’s.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Three New Nummy Merchandise Has Been Added To My Web Store

Hello Bat Brat’s,

I am excited to announce three new Cuty Boo’s have been added to my web store. Two Cupcakes and Three Cuty Boo’s Melting Ice Creams. Come check them out at Bat Brat Mandy.

Cuty Boo’s Illustration’s Are In My Web Store

Hello Bat Brat’s,

I have been working on drawing my Cuty Boo’s Illustration’s. These are all in my web store Bat Brat Mandy. More coming soon. Also I am working on a Gothic themed Cuty Boo.

Falling In Love

Let me mourn for the last
bit of light, that beamed through
the forlorned clouds.

With the setting of the sun
I lost your love,
as the fog rolled in
my meadows died from a cold
gush of wind (frozen).

Your lips left me scared,
your dream like kiss
left me a dying wish.

As our love bowed to the dying
beams, you can hear my heart
scream.

Free I was once but now I am
like a caged bird
begging to be free.

Love fell like the star it is,
leaving behind a burning trail.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Poetic Crossing

I write poetry,
I also write emotions
that I find difficult to express. 

Emotions on the ocean,
ride the rolling tides,
like a wave washing ashore
its life, that lives
in its depths. 

It gave birth to a poetic format,
emotions too high to express
through a voice. 

I come to a crossroads
between emotions and me,
I always share openly.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

The Medium

Unseen by many
but I am not blind.

A ghost is of course
nothing but a nick in time,
a wound left behind
by a life birthed
from water and blood.

Its scares can be seen
if only you opened your mind
to the possibility.

I see what most can’t
because I can imagine the possibilities.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Ghost Adventures

Silence is never a choice,
once your dead
even your memory screams.

A chilling breath worthy
to catch, a fearful mind
is a caldron of ghoulish
times.

A lost soul never truly dies,
for we all leave something behind.

Ghosts and you
there’s no difference
between the two.

You think you have a longer time,
sadly you don’t really know
when it’s your time.

Boo! Someday that will be you.

An EVP,
a video recording of a misty mass.

Who knows really?

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

New Selfies I Thought I Should Share

Hello Bat Brat’s,

I try to keep everyone updated so I thought I should share my recent selfies. I don’t take very many pictures of myself but I share them when I do. I don’t feel comfortable in front of the camera so I don’t take many pictures of myself. Just for you my beautiful Bat Brat’s. I love you all very much. I hope you have a great day or evening.

Two New Blog Banners

Hello Bat Brat’s,

I created these banners for promoting my new projects Bat Cave Poetry and Vampires Eat Bloody Poetry. You can also find me on Twitter @GothicMuse1. My blog is connected to it and Facebook. I do on occasion post on Twitter. I am also on Hello Poetry.

Poetry Is My Passion

Of burning delights my
kindling ignites the flame
that burns beyond my mind.

Such passion burns
like the hottest
embers red and heated.

I burn for poetry
as it scares my soul
with it’s lashing tounge.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

The Graveyard Shift Quotes & Poems For The Gothic Inclined (First Ink)

I am working on a new project. I call it “The Graveyard Shift Quotes & Poems For The Gothic Inclined” and this is the first ink for my project.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Vanity Vampire Walks The Morrow Until Today

Shadows slowly stretch
over the ground,
as the sun sets
upon the pending night.

All daylight creatures
begin their silent sleep,
while the creatures
of the night awaken.

With ghoulish pride
the vampire rides the chilling night,
as the moon pulls the tides
from its gravity.

A fog rolls over rooftops
and hills become a graveyard
for the cold night air.

A misty frame
bent over and grim,
strides upon
the stone walls,
humans know nothing
of the monsters outside.

A vanity so fair
but a bloody affair
is all they wear,
and no reflection
do they manage.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

From my Gothic collection
“Vampires Eat Bloody Poetry”

Gothic Meal

Sitting down to a Gothic meal,
roasted paper for
soaking up dark poetics.

For the Gothic poet eats
ashes and blood stained poetry.

The parchment has yellowed,
causing a grungy texture to
my format.

I a poet have a darker vision
to a morbid stuffing recipe
for Gothic lore and
a darker side of my
poetics.

Your mind eats from my
darker side, as you read
my Gothic eulogy.

Without poetry I am dead inside.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

I Started A Web Store (Bat Brat Mandy)

Hello Bat Brat’s,

This is an update, I have been working hard past few days. I started a web store here’s the link to Bat Brat Mandy. I have already uploaded some merchandise to the store.

You can click on the picture below to view my store.

I will be making more artwork to add to the store, so please feel free to check it out.

I am working on a Gothic themed piece to add to the store as well.



On another note, I am having problems with my pain management. Medical trys their best to cause me more pain by not expecting my doctor’s subscriptions for my pain medication. Oh but they don’t have any problems giving me my muscle relaxers or antibiotics that almost killed me (drug allergies suck). Also my pain Specialist caused this trouble. All because he wanted me to lock up my medication. I can’t afford a lockbox like he wants. I think he doesn’t understand what being poor means. He said they are cheap. How is 35 dollars cheap? Maybe he’s never been without before? I don’t know.

Movie on…

I am hoping I have a better day today than yesterday. I have been suffering with migraines again. I love the weather, it’s been raining off and on this whole month. That’s probably why I have been suffering with migraines lately though. I guess that’s life. You get what you get.

Hugs to you all and blessings from your Mandy. I hope you are all well.

Boop!

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Grinding Life

Do you find it hard to
live in flesh and bone,
slowly grinding as life chips away?

In the end
we all become ghosts,
some of us learn to expect
our fate.

I am one of them.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Autism

“What is it like to have an autistic brain? This poem will explain what it’s like for me.”



I am autistic,
I was born this way.

My brain is wired differently
than yours,
I can’t change who I am
just to fit in with yours.

My mind is brutally honest,
straight forward and on the line,
I promise and I follow through.

I see color like fireworks
bursting through the sky,
light washes everything
with bleached out colors.

I can imagine what’s beyond the horizon,
the possibilities are endless
if you can get past your
closed mindedness.

I once took a leap from my mind,
because I felt trapped inside.

I thought I wanted what you have,
I wanted something normal,
then I learned what normal is.

Normal is a common angle,
I can never be that,
so I quit trying.

I excepted that,
I am who I am and
I should be okay with that.

I don’t think with a voice,
instead I think through imagery
similar to a 3d printer.

I had to learn how to express myself
through poetry, do to the fact
I couldn’t speak like you.

My life started out in silence,
slowly I grew into the noises around me.

I am autistic
you will have to be okay
with that
because nothing is going
to change my DNA,
and I’ve learned to be okay with that.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Beautiful Lies

With one touch of your hand
I fell for your tenderness.

But with a violent jerk
you took away the tenderness
I love.

Over time, I thought
you cared about us,
but all I could find
were your lies.

Breathless beginnings,
endless lies with
doubtful bribes.

All in your favor,
you stole what was mine
(your love).

You treated my love
as if it has no meaning.

My kisses landed but
you brushed them aside.

Like daggers you cut me deep,
watching me bleed,
you then take another slice
until there’s nothing
left of me.

I have been beat
by your beautiful lies,
you are the King of lier’s,
I became your jester
too many times.

I am broken,
my pieces shattered
too thinly for it to matter.

I fought bravely
but in the end
it’s not the brave who survive,
it’s the strong and bold
who keep standing in the storm
who survive.

The break down of love
hurts, it burns like fire,
just as strong as love did
before you broke our bond.

You left me in the dust
after you set the fire.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

To my love.

Until We Meet Again

I will miss you until the dawn,
until the ocean touch’s the sun.
My heart will be waiting,
my mind will be praying
for your returning.

Goodbye my love.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

For my Seanisko.

Madness | Rabbit Hole

Rabbit Hole

I wonder if I stumble on time
or does time stumble upon me?

Time is the affect of change,
I am part of its affect.

I am like Alice falling down
the rabbit hole,
I am always falling into time
while it is collapsing in on me.
Forever is a long time,
but we only have a lifetime
to get it right.

I thought I found the answer to life,
only to be left with more questions.
I know I have reached the end
once I run out of questions.

I am like a man on the moon,
I am isolated by my mind,
my skin changes over it’s cycle
leaving dust on everything I touch.

Ticking time,
tick’s for us all,
as we drift through its changes
and effects.

I am like Alice falling down
the rabbit hole,
in the end I find I have been
falling up and down never excited.

Tea time is every hour it is not,
and my birthday is on everyday
it is not so happy unbirthday,
come sit with me and we will
have tea. Oh dear look at the time,
I need to fly.
Bye!

We’re all mad here can’t you see?

Grin 😁

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

A Theft In The Night

The shadows march on
through the night,
as the moon slowly moved on,
and the dawn stole the night.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Writing

Writing is like
a pending storm,
you never know
what will happen next.

It might pour
buckets of rain,
or it might get
cold and foggy.

Watch me dump my bucket,
I will write you a rainbow,
and make you clouds
made from cotton candy.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Be Brave

You should never regret your scares.

Instead grow stronger,
be brave and you do deserve
an applause.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

Cold Breath Of Winter

My window is dripping with rain drops, my day is foggy
but beautiful.

I like the cold breath of winter,
she sits upon her earthy
domain, as if to tease me
once again.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

I thought I should post something positive after posting about my migraine.

Owed To This Migraine

You pound like a heartbeat
in my head, drumming a beat
of pain and dreed.

Slowly you grow,
beating harder and harder,
like a nail driving into my
nervous system.

You rattle my life
like a painful snake bite,
oh what horrible time I’ve had
with you by my side.

Owed to this migraine,
may the pain kill’s
shoot you dead.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

I am having a migraine today. I think I should write this poem about it because I was thinking about it so much it was driving me crazy.

I Dreamt Of A Rainbow

I once dreamt in color
I liked it so much
I never recovered.

I dreamt of rainbows and unicorns,
stars shooting golden showers
across the night sky.

The clouds were friendly too,
until the storm’s came
washed away my dream
with gray.

In the end
the rainbow bridge
welcomed me again.

There is always a rainbow
after a storm.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton

A Poet

Here I am again,
pushing my pen
across the line.

Line by line,
letter by letter,
I formed my prose
with constructive format.

Slowly building a rhyme,
free forming ourselves
line by line.

It’s the life of a poet,
my fingers are stained
with poetic ink,
forever a reminder
of what I am.

I am forever more
A Poet.

© 2018 By Amanda D Shelton