Sad Me – Seasons Change Collection – Chasing Time

Sometimes I want to runaway,
sometimes I want to play,
sometimes I want to go back in time
to when smile’s and happiness was
common.

As time grinds, the winds of my life
blow and weather my heart and
my childhood withered like a rose.

Change chases me, it wraps itself around
everything as I watch the seasons shake
their gowns blooming and falling to the ground.

My spirit is left naked wondering in the
forest of chaos.

Dreams allude me, wishes forgot about me,
and the stars fell without me.

I am leftover bursts of energy,
there are dusty dreams
in between my footprints
I left in the sands of my life
as I walk this plain of experience.

Like dust in the wind, I am a fading star
leftover from the big bang. Yet I am still
blooming and I have so much more to offer.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

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Like A Haunted House

In-between night and day is where
my mind likes to play.

Blinded by the light
but I see in the dark
like a bat.

My mental health is not all that,
its chained to the four walls I live in.

My muscles never work like normal,
cramps and joint pain crunching my
day, it keeps me awake all night.

Like a haunted house,
my body creeks and shivers,
I lose balance as I quiver,
my past stalks me like a ghost
and my hair is turning into pepper.

Like a haunted house my life
is falling apart but the foundation
is still standing so when I am ready
I can rebuild.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

Cherish The Moment

Memories are priceless
because they only happen
once in a lifetime.

You can only imagine the passed
so cherish the future because
it will be the passed.

Also this very moment is the future,
present as well as the passed.

Now is the crossroads of our lives.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

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Earths Song

Verse 1: The Earth is our home, the only one we know. It gives us life and love, and everything we need to grow. From the mountains to the oceans, from the deserts to the poles the Earth is full of wonders, that fill our hearts and souls.

Chorus: Oh Earth, you are so beautiful, you are so amazing. You are the source of all our joy, you are the reason we are living. Oh Earth, you are so precious, you are so unique. You are the masterpiece of nature; you are the peak of all creation.

Verse 2: The Earth is our family; we share it with all living things. It teaches us to care and respect, and to appreciate the gifts it brings. From the forests to the grasslands, from the coral reefs to the skies. The Earth is full of diversity, that enriches our lives.

Chorus: Oh Earth, you are so beautiful, you are so amazing. You are the source of all our joy, you are the reason we are living. Oh Earth, you are so precious, you are so unique. You are the masterpiece of nature; you are the peak of all creation.

Verse 3: The Earth is our responsibility, we have to protect it from harm It faces many challenges, from climate change to pollution. From the cities to the villages, from the farms to the mines The Earth needs our action, to ensure its future shines.

Chorus: Oh Earth, you are so beautiful, you are so amazing You are the source of all our joy, you are the reason we are living. Oh Earth, you are so precious, you are so unique. You are the masterpiece of nature; you are the peak of all creation.

Outro: Oh Earth, we love you so much, we thank you for everything. You are our home, our family, our responsibility. Oh Earth, we celebrate you today, we honor you every day. You are our beautiful planet; you are our amazing Earth.

© 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

We Are

We are like poems,
we grew from a plot
and rooted ourselves
hydrating and feeding
our poetic seeds through
internet communities.

Each individual poem is a
unique experience and
it brings us together.

I believe words can cure
a broken heart, bandage
a mental bruise and
an emotional wound.

It can cure sadness for
a moment too.
It can be a reminder
of the good and bad.

A way to cope with reality
when our minds get lost
in a dream created by society.

I don’t fit your mold,
I don’t move with the same
flow as you, I don’t walk but
I can talk and write poetry.

Are you a robot or
part of society?

Society has tried to breed
stupidity and incompetent
people, but not everyone
follows the flow.

People like me break the mold,
oozes out with creativity and
uniqueness like it’s a new fashion trend.

We are change, we are
the lessons you have been
needing to break free
from societies views of
who they want you to be.

What others want you to be
doesn’t matter in the end,
only you hold the key to your
destiny and future.

You don’t have to follow the
line when your future is across
the line. All you have to do is
build your own paths and roads.

My foundation is poetry,
it brings me to my future
and reminds me of my past
so I can move forward and heal.

Poetry is my destiny and future
it brings me to the crossroads of
my life so I can ponder upon
my choices and I don’t make
bad decisions.

For me poetry is meditation,
a self discovery.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

Loves Ghost

In the beginning…

Oh please, please, please
stop dragging my heart
through the fire and mud.

Oh please, please, please
stop trying to fix it because
its broke.

You used to call me
in the middle of the night
woke me to such a fright.

Oh please, please, please
stop accusing me.

Oh please, please, please
stop worrying about me
and fix your own life instead.

Oh please, please, please
stop stalking me,
I’m having trouble falling asleep
because you are hovering over me.

Healing…

I’ve been walking alone
for awhile now, with
blood on my feet
and the glass cuts deep,
from our broken relationship
that you used to cut into
the deepest parts of me.

Oh please, please, please
let me heal in peace.

I’m trying to run away
from your ghost.
It keeps pounding on the bedpost,
grinding the gears that was our love.

You are in love with your
paranoia and narcissism.

I never was enough for you,
you’re too demanding and
stuck.

Freedom…
I’m free from your seven year
choking grip.

Happiness is never too far away.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

Lost Souls And The Vampires Curse

No grave will be open for
the suffering souls, they are
cursed to walk the earth lost
and lonely.

From night to dust,
the night lit her desire
and she burst to life.

Upon the fog comes
beauty and cold skin, like
stone and white as porcelain
the vampire lurks.

The moonlight reveals her
presence for a moment,
her shadow lingers like smoke.

The ground is cold, deep
and ready, as she lays down
amongst the worms and bugs,
the ghosts of her past follow
her into the night.

Bats fly and wolves howl,
above is a full moon night.

Fangs are ready, black cloak
behind her, hair flowing in
the pitch of dark.

With a glint of white teeth
a grin of thirst and beaconing
the vampire stalks the city
for eternity.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

Growing Poetry

I have a needle and thread always ready.

My scars are witnesses to my struggles.

My bruises are sore but healing.

My heart is stronger but bleeding.

My life is calming but clouded by
pain and rain.

My ocean is stormy but my destination
is clear.

My future is always in front of me,
but my plans don’t always
follow my rules.

Sometimes I feel like running but
life keeps tugging holding me to
this spot forcing me to be patient.

So here I am waiting, darkness is
my old friend and the four walls
are my security.

Until we meet again, I leave my
whispering poems of thoughts
for you to read and ponder upon.

I am like a weed, I grow poetry.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

Change

In the end!

After humanity has caught the last fish,
after they dug up all that is left,
after they cut down the last tree,
and drank the last drop of clean water,
only then will human beings see the
devastation of their activities.

Our tears will not be enough
to hydrate and grow what we
reap and sow.

Only giving and forgiving ourselves
will stop this disaster that is humanity.

Our future depends on change,
its hanging in the balance,
blowing in the hurricanes and tornadoes,
its breaking the earth quaking our
souls and shaking our lives
to the bottom of its foundation.

Yet silence breaks the cries of
the world, ignorance is a disease,
it drinks our tears steals our breath
for the popular vote.

There’s no freedom after you choke.

Climate change is no joke!

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

Sad me – Seasons Change Collection – Autumn Wipes Away The Summertime Blues

I am a pile of petals
fallen from a rose.

The autumn leafs all around
me, the season is changing.

There’s a slight chill in the air
and holiday cheer lingers on
pumpkin spice and smoke.

The summer has left with its heat
and dragons breath.

Storms are brewing on the coast
bringing cold and hot air into a
frenzy of energy and destruction.

Summertime blues came and flew,
now autumn is here to wipe away
our tears.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

My Poetic Forest

That like a seed,
poetry grows for me.

It roots itself deeply
inside my headspace,
without poetry I am empty.

Like a forest ideas thrive
within my poetic mind,
I am always traveling inside
my forest of thoughts picking
weeds and gathering leafs.

When I fall I fall hard,
and poetry follows me
into the darkness of my
life. There it lights a fire
and brightens the darkest
of nights and it guides me
through the trees.

Poetry is like a moon
and I am its orbit. I
laso it and bring it closer
for everyone to admire
its pots and beautiful blooms.

It’s a lingering sent, a ghostly
memory of a flame lit centuries
before my birth.

The poetic formats never fade
for they live forever within
the minds of the readers.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

Shattered

It burst into millions of pieces,
shards flew to the deepest
depths of my life.

What once was my heart
is now ruins, shards of
memories you left behind.

Shattered!

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

My Shapeless Struggle

Sometimes I feel like
I am living in a square,
I am stuck within a
windowless house.

Sometimes I feel like
I am living in a triangle,
it’s getting tight in here
the walls keep disappearing
trapping me inside nothingness.

Sometimes I feel like
I am living in a circle,
it seems internally unfair.

Sometimes I feel like
I am living in outer space,
I keep floating away and
reality comes to rescue me
it brings me back to earth
and my feet touch the ground
reminding me of everything
that is important.

It keeps me here
just for the moment.

This is my shapeless struggle,
it changes.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

Chumps No Genius

A fool knows they are a fool
but only a genius fool
would admit to being a fool
and learn something.

Donald Trump’s no genius
because he doesn’t learn anything,
because he doesn’t believe he is capable
of making a mistake.

A fool makes mistakes and
a genius fool admits to making
a mistake and learns something.

Trump’s just a chump for
attention and watching
people suffer.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

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The Ghost Of Trauma

Inside my mind lives memories
of pain and suffering.

PTSD kidnapped me.
After it caught me it
collected my blood and tears,
drank my pain and spit it out,
made me watch as it danced
around laughing in my face
like some sadistic clown.

It caged my self esteem,
pushed me around until I fell,
it punched me when I was down.

It beat me up pulled me up by its
strings, it shoved me in a box
flooding it with my tears and blood
drowning me in its mud.

PTSD is like a ghost
it haunts my dreams
and reality.

But I have grown braver and stronger
so trauma can’t beat me anymore.
I built a foundation that’s stable
and capable of protecting me
from the past.

Trauma is a ghost from my past,
it will always haunt me.

My scars are visible but a testament
to my struggles and survival.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

Sobriety Is Recovery

You are worth it.

There are struggles,
we all need to learn
to accept ourselves and
to let go of our past
aggressions.

To forgive yourself is
the biggest lesson.

It leads to love and acceptance
of self.

In love you will find
peace and comfort and
within that peace you will find
time and within that time
is recovery.

It takes one step at a time.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

I wrote this for a fellow poet and friend on Hello Poetry. Please check out Hello Poetry to read other poems and meet poets like myself. I am a long time member, it’s not a very active community but I like it. I am faithful to the site because I get to interact with others and I am respected. I have been online since 2001 writing poetry. I have joined almost every poetry and writing community there is even the UK and Asian communities I am a member of. They teach me to communicate and how to improve. It’s given me a following and a group that accepts my uniqueness and Gothic vibes. I am blessed that people are kind to me because I am a uniquely honest person with no hatred in my heart. I make people feel comfortable. It’s my gift to humanity. My adopted mom told me I am special and I am beautiful. I can’t deny that because she’s not the only person to say that. I might not believe it myself but I believe the people who think it because I hear it a lot. I am always working on accepting myself and how people think of me. I have been abused so many times that I lost my self esteem. I might always be lost but I will keep looking. It is my adventure and I only have one lifetime to live. I want to explore as much as possible. Someday soon I will be joining a group of other special people like myself. They will help me socialize and get out again. I have to fully recover from surgery and make sure I have my seizures under control before I start. I am scared and excited about it. I am not very social, I am loving and welcoming but I don’t go out and socialize. People have to come to me and bring me out or I am going to be myself inside my personal bat cave. I am worried I will be blunt and people will think I am rude. I am not rude, I am honest. People are not used to brutal honesty. I do know when to speak but I don’t know when to stop. I over communicate. I will be okay once I get into the program for a while. I will have support with me until I don’t need them. Lisa and Joyce are going to be with me.

Never Say Goodbye

When I fall I fall hard but recover fast.

I don’t want to run away
from my last panic attack.

I don’t want to face pain
like its my last breath.

I don’t want to skip one minute
to reach the last.

I want to take my time
as if its my last.

I want to enjoy what I have,
and live for the moment.

I’d rather skip the thought
of death and remember life
as if its my best friend.

I don’t want to be a fading star
waiting for my last burst.

All the times I am holding on to
is nothing, for I am never coming back.

I will be a memory and my actions
will be all that is left.

Don’t say goodbye,
and leave forever.

Oh no, I am lighting my candle
and leaving it in my window
so you all can return and
see my flame, its burning
on this page.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

I, I am

I, I am me.

I, I am a shadow
sitting in the dark
soaking up the light.

I, I am a hollow full of
tears from past struggles.

I, I am a scar painful and lingering
I am irritated at times but still healing.

I, I am a broken heart bruised but not
beaten by my broken love affairs.

I, I am hollow once in awhile
as depression fells my
emptiness with its blackness.

I, I am a muscle I am stronger than
I believe I am, until I decide to
left my own weight.

I, I am a dream within a dream
dreaming of being awake.

I, I am possibilities for I am capable of
change and growth.

I, I am beyond the static of thought,
I am beyond your dreams and wishes
for I am a fading star.

I, I am human, I am the breath
of creativity and emotions
for I am intelligent.

I, I am love for I was born
with an infinite heart space.

I, I am autism for I was born
uniquely autisticly me.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

The Foolish Jester

I know a fool, he’s my ex narcissist
who pretended to be my boyfriend
for seven years.

A fool is to be a rambling jester,
jumping around making jokes
for entertainment.

You can’t speak with a fool
for they are always playing
the part of the jester.

You are but the fools victim.

They are capable of driving
the smartest people into madness
to steal everything they worked for
and blame them for the crimes.

A fool is a narcissist in disguise.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

Age Of The Dreamer

My angels are always on my side,
I have their wings resting on my back.

They guide me in the dark,
they hold me when I feel like
I am falling into the deep.

Whatever it takes because I have the
possibilities running through my veins.

Like stars bursting from my mind,
the possibilities rise and fly from
my imagination. This is one of
the floods that I create.

I surf this epic earth its oceans are
chaotic but amazing.

I make my way through the vail
that is my life, slowly it burns away
as time takes it’s turn lighting fires.

Boom bang!

WAKE UP!

Dreamers dream but weavers weave
the possibilities of reality.

I am both awake and asleep,
I am walking in a waking dream
of me.

Vividly lucid my eyes wind open
yet closed. Vailed by the bright lights
that blind me to the dark,
it tried taking everything but my
struggles kindled my star and I
chose to burn brighter.

Time doesn’t hear you when you
ask it to wait, so ride the waves,
own your fears and your age.

Ride the wrinkles of your life,
ride them proudly.

Now open your imagination to the
possibilities and dream and weave
your roads passed the horizon
of your dreams. Where you float
and angels fly holding your heart
guiding your life through the dark.

I follow the strings and vibrations
of my life, and I never fall for my
angels are always beside me their
wings rest upon my back
and carry me.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

Ghostly Shadows

The shadows of my life move along
the walls in my mind, always evolving
through the doorways of my dreams.

Move away, move away,
always evolving opening
doors to possibilities.

Did I change?
Did I move?
Did I become the shadow?

The flies always return,
bodies decay and souls leave.
Ghosts.

Move away, move away,
beyond this two dimensional
space of dreaming minds, they
collide locked in a dance between
two hearts tied together by strings.

Do we ever truly die?

How can we die if our memories
live on?

Move away, move away into the dark
my shadow sleeps until the light returns.
Nothing remains but my ghost.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

Oh Boy, You’re Such A Drag

You made me bring a bag boy,
you were such a drag boy.

You forgot to grow into
a man boy, you hit 30
and you passed go awhile ago
but you didn’t collect the $200
before you stole my heart boy,
now your broke and I am beating
bleeding on the floor boy.

You made me bring a bag boy,
you broke my back all for a drag boy.

You’re no man, you’re a drag
in a bag boy.

The smudges you left behind are
following my shadow like a drag boy.

Now I am fighting your ghost.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton

Dug So Deep

As the house crumbles
I quake, I shake, I stand in the
ruins of my life.

Reality bursts into existence
as I grasp for resistance, I am
a revival a ghost of my shadows.

All that remains is ash, six feet
of ruble dirt rocks and struggles.

I once tried digging for gold
only to find charcoal and oil,
the grinding gears sparked and
lit a fire.

I pop and creak, I fell apart
at the seems.

Age is an old friend, it leaves me
wrinkles strength and growth.

My hair is a testament to my stress,
gray is half way out of the war, white
is half in the grave, ash is both it can go
both ways.

I hit the dirt running and I keep going,
I jumped into the river and I road the
tide, I dove deep into the ocean of my life
blew bubbles as I rose and climbed
into the boat.

I swam in my dreams, wishing for a
life I can only imagine but reality hit me
hard and I woke in the mud my boat
got stuck. I’ve been here for awhile.

©️ 2023 By Amanda D Shelton