Nerve Pain

You cling to me like cellophane,
wrapping yourself around myself
with your electric forked tongue,
as you drag each of my neurons
out into the world; exposed they are,
as I am left to feel their nakedness and chills.
I feel their bite and electric fields.
their pain has become my friend.

© 2017 Amanda D Shelton

Visual Poem ( A Beating Life Lived Hard)

A Beating Life Lived Hard Poem

© 2017 Amanda D Shelton

I made the owl awhile back. I decided to use it for the poem because it goes so well with the subject of the poem. I put “don’t quit” on the owls belly. 😊

I Have A New Store Not 100% Happy But It Will Do For Now

Hello Bat Brats,

I am so excited to announce my new store Lily Pad Stock Designs. Also here’s a product I am currently selling. You can buy this product now by clicking Buy Now below the image.

Buy Now $5

Here’s a coupon for my first time customers, one per costumer:

First Time Customer 50% Off

50% off with coupon code “50%OFF1TIME” for all products

I have more products coming soon. I am still learning how the website works. I might end up changing websites because I can’t afford the monthly payment of 15 dollars. I am currently using a free plane which is very limited. I can only put up 5 products. So I don’t recommend sellfy.com to anyone who can’t afford to pay them. I can’t even send out emails to promote my products. There are other cons about sellfy that I am not happy with. Only one upside about the website is I am able to create coupons for my costumer’s. Though I think I can do the same if I just used Blogger. It’s free and I can use PayPal too. 🤗 I will give you updates about my store as it unfolds. Thank you for reading and being loyal reads of my blog. I am very grateful for you all. I hope you have a beautiful day/evening.

 

© 2017 Amanda D Shelton



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Lady Of The Night

She who walks with shadows
stalk your dimly lit dreams,
she kisses your fears with her frozen lips.

She who lives in shady meadows
moving swiftly through the trees,
she can only be seen on a fullmoon night
when her shadow beams with an eery light.

Her stalking frame looms over the night
as she waits for the dawn’s sunlight.



© Amanda D Shelton

Am I Anything Special

No I am not,
unless you think I am.
I don’t see myself
as being anything but myself.

I am not anymore special
than you are.

That makes us all special.

How I see it,
You are more unique than a rose.
We come in different colors,
we come in different sizes
and shapes.
We can be soft,
smooth, or rough.
We have a time when we bloom,
We have roots that carry

blood and nutrition
threw our system,
but we also have something
a rose will never have;
We have a brain and
an intelligence that
is abstract.

© By Amanda D Shelton

Eternal Pain

It is a night of ethereal pain,
a song of sorrow rakes my wane,
ghosts of my past vent their howls.

The ethereal souls stir;
fog shrouds their stalking frame,
their brooding agony fallows me.

Moon beams cascade over
dark and tragic shadows,
and the sorrow of my pain
fade to gray, as my life
begins to change.

Now a night of shared tears,
I remember my pain
as a ghost remembers
their past life.

 © By Amanda D Shelton

You Are So Beautiful (By Joe Cocker)

“You Are So Beautiful”

You are so beautiful
To me
You are so beautiful
To me
Can’t you see
You’re everything I hoped for
You’re everything I need
You are so beautiful
To me

Such joy and happiness
You bring
Such joy and happiness
You bring
Like a dream
A guiding light that shines in the night
Heavens gift to me

You are so beautiful
To me

Hello Autism Oh Nooooo!

Hello Bat Brats,Mandy Portait

Okay I am bored and having sensory problems today, so I have decided to share on my blog. I call this post Hello Autism Oh Nooooo! Why because it hurts and my problem is stupid overload of sensory do to Sensory Processing Disorder, which is common in people who have autism. I was diagnosed with stage one autism at the age of 30, on March 7th 2012 with Sensory Processing Disorder, I also have Savant syndrome (also known as autistic savant). It use to have a different name which is (Idiot Savant). Thank God that changed because I am not an idiot. 

                    My problems started all because I went outside without my sunglasses to help my boyfriend clean our Baby Boo’s cat box. Don’t forget your sunglasses if you have autism, it doesn’t work well or if you have Sensory Processing Disorder . I am screwed for most of the day all because of three minutes of sun exposure. Even sounds seem louder, lights brighter with a static like fuzz, almost like the static from a TV. Also my clothing is causing me to feel like sandpaper is being raked across my skin. It is slowly getting better so Yay! ♥

                  I am glad to be able to share this unique experience with my readers. I know some of my followers already know about my Autism because you have been following me from the beginning of me starting my blog. I thought it would be good for me to share more for my newer followers. It’s a bit of knowledge and awareness for you all.

Autism is a complex neurological disorder of development

              Autism spectrum disorder (ASD) refers to a group of complex neurodevelopment disorders characterized by repetitive and characteristic patterns of behavior and difficulties with social communication and interaction. The symptoms are present from early childhood and affect daily functioning.

             Not all autistic people have the same symptoms. Just like normal people we are all different, so how autism affects us will be different.  

Parts Of My story        

             I didn’t make friends until middle school because I didn’t care about making friends, because I was too busy trying to understand the other kids. I still don’t understand people. I have problems reading facial features, I have learned what certain movements mean but I am unable to tell what emotional responses are. I do have a higher awareness of my space, meaning I can sense changes in my environment that most people can’t. I can tell you the weather without looking at the news, also I can tell when it will rain days ahead. I know when someone is walking through the apartments entrance gate, and the gate is pretty far away. Sometimes I even see images in my mind of upcoming events, because my brain analyzes situations and I am able to visualize the situation with detailed accuracy. I saved my mom’s life many times because of my ability to visualize situations. Once I told my mom to pull over to the side of the road, we were heading to the beach in LA and I noticed a few things that scared me a bit. I told her I can’t keep going there is going to be an accident soon. She pulled over and a few minutes later a diesel truck came rushing by us, it hit a car in front of it and the car hit another vehicle and then a motorcycle hit the truck. We would have been the car in front if she wouldn’t have pulled over. I would have been died because lucky for the driver he didn’t have a passenger next to him, the whole passenger seat was crushed in. Mom prayed with me after that happened. It scared us both.

Boop! That’s all folks….

Until next time Bye (“sound of a door closing”).            

Hello Alice Art Collection (A Project I Am Working On)

Hello Alice Elegant Plaque

      

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       “Hello Alice, I see you… Shshshshshsh Alice is dreaming, as for me I am a white rabbit for the evening”. 

      “Sometimes you can’t hear the ticking of the clock, other times it will drive you mad. Alice is her name and dreams are her game. I am a white rabbit showing you the way. Come on down, watch your trip it’s a long way down. Here is where you will find all the clocks who lost their time. Silence is normal but not if you are a timepiece. Tick tock, tick tock…falling into silence; as madness sat down for tea at 3:08 pm.” 

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Hello Alice
Welcome to my madness

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Elegant Parchment 2

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Hello Alice

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Clock Face

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Gothic Tile Grunge Background

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Hello Alice

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“These pieces are from my Hello Alice Art Collection.
You can find more at Hello Alice Art Collection on DeviantArt. ”

© By Amanda D Shelton

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